Rough Night

It was a rough night.

I put up a fight, but it

Was dark v. light, and 

I tried with all my might

To be in the side of right, but

My might isn't as strong as the Light in my life, 

So this fight wasn't really mine. 

It was a lesson in trust, 

It is an absolute must

That I confess my lust for

Popularity,

Notoriety, 

Society calling out my name.

I want to fit and be seen, 

I want the flashes and big screens, and yet

That's not the life You planned for me. 

I slept but didn't,

I wanted to win it, 

The fight in my Spirit,

But I tossed and turned instead, wondering if this was really me or if it was somebody

Else going for broke.

Then I awoke, and You spoke

Softly

Gently

Firmly, 

Spoke to me to let me know

You carry me,

Never let me go 

Too far or stray off and away

You're walking with me today. 

The yearns of the heart - deceptive

The wants of the flesh - destructive

The will of my Father - divine and definite

It was a rough night,

A touch and go night,

A long and tough night,

But the Light won the fight because I surrendered my might 

And let My God be the stronghold of my life 

As my spirit cries out for the Living God, maker of heaven and earth, to be my

Best friend

Beginning and end

Lifeline that never bends

Comforter and keeper that sends

Peace, for He is the Prince,

Hope that will never flinch,

And drive that wince but persists under pressure. 

God, you are my God, and I will ever praise you.