On the emotional level, this week has been hell. Let me explain why.
Hell is a place completely devoid of God's presence. I've been so emotionally driven that stopping to allow God any space in my life this week didn't quite happen, so it's been hell.
And yet, He loves me. Oh, how He loves me!
Not really gonna give a recap - I can personally live without it - but there's been a process of getting me to the entry of Jesus Calling for today. I promise, there's a method to my madness... more like insanity, insecurity, and insistence for control.
The title was a comment that I received as a response to a look given during a conversation a few weeks ago. It's stuck with me since then and came up in a conversation with my cousin earlier this week. She asked me if I felt perfection was an expectation I placed on the relationship. Did I think that expectation restricted the ability to be one's self? I thought for a moment before saying, "Possibly".
Before I go any further, let's define "perfect": w/o blemish, scarring, or anything that can mar an image. In reference to people, it's someone who never chooses themselves over others. For those of us that love God, it's someone that always chooses God's will and never chooses self-rule. Perfect is someone who has no blemish on his or her soul.
How many times do we use "nobody's perfect" to excuse our weakness? Not in any way am I saying I don't do this - my response in the early conversation was "Who you tellin'?". If anything, I see everyday how miserably I fail at perfection, especially this week. I want to be the perfect friend/sister/child/worker/girlfriend(eventual wife)/singer/worshiper/teacher/leader. (Do I aspire high or what?) I want to always choose God's will and never choose self-rule. This week, the exact opposite happened, and it was because I want to be those things.
Twist (and deviation from what I have written on paper): Matt. 6:33. More and more, this verse is becoming bigger and bigger in my life. Track with me... If I seek God and His kingdom first, He will add things to my life, right? Well, when I seek God first, I am in a place where I've accepted, believe, and live a life that puts Christ on the throne. When I live in this place, Galatians 2:20 is truth: "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me". Ok, so here we go. Christ is now living in my body, and I'm still aware of life, even though I am dead. So, all that is necessary for perfection now resides in me.
I'm not claiming to be Jesus - please don't assume that! I - me, Jayme Hightower - am not perfect, but Christ - son of God, all that is perfect - lives in me. Not only is perfection "in" me, but... wait for it... greater is HE that is in me than he that is in the world! Does this make sense? Life is full of imperfections, but "our God is greater, our God is stronger! Lord, you are higher than any other! Our God is healer, awesome in power - our God!" (I'm convinced God has a soundtrack for all our lives - for some, it manifests on CD!)
Last night, I spent an hour on the phone with a friend, wondering why I felt like my faith was crumbling into a pile of nothing. How many lies spewed from my mouth, I couldn't tell you. Honestly, every insecurity I've ever struggled with manifested in a false statement about myself. She spoke this CRAZY amount of life into me, and I couldn't move past AHHH!!!
Bringing me back to Jesus Calling for May 21, 2010:
I, the Creator of the Universe, am with you and for you. What more could you need? When you feel some lack (of perfection, I added), it is because you are not connecting with Me at a deep level. I offer abundant Life (which I was reminded of last night); your part is to trust Me, refusing to worry about anythying.
And bringing me back to the soundtrack God's playing in my head:
Water - you turned into wine
Opened the eyes of the blind.
There's no one like you - none like you.
Perfection is found only in Jesus, so yeah, nobody's perfect... and it's okay because Perfection is within us, and it is greater than our insecurities, insensitivies, insanity, and instability. He is our stability in the chaos of life.
You alone can rescue,
You alone can save.
You alone can lift us from the grave.
You came down to find us,
Led us out of death.
To You alone belongs the highest praise!
*note: to the one that felt I expected perfection - it wasn't you that I expected to be perfect. I knew you had flaws, and that was okay with me. It was my imperfections I couldn't see past. Thanks for hanging in there and being patient with me.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Day 7 - Last Full Day
"Happy Mother's Day, hehehe!" was the text I got on my phone Sunday morning after taking a shower. It was from one of "my" daughters, a young lady that, with her twin sister, has called me Mama since age 16. She is now a 21 year old with her own little girl. It blessed me immensely to hear from her, especially since our schedules don't really allow for much together time anymore. I wished her the same and send a text hug to my "granddaughter". It was a great beginning to a full day.
Brandy and I left the others at the resort and went off on a quest to find just the right gift for my mom. I had purchased a cute thermos for her (she's a tea drinker) the day before, and we were in search of something that would make her smile. We got that, and more, at the Bath & Body Works outlet right around the corner. We tried to find her a nice terry robe, but the ones we saw weren't the greatest, and evidently Wal-Mart in TN doesn't carry robes. Oh, well, it is what it is. We decided to go out for lunch before our afternoon trek to the theatre. Wendy's was the choice of the day, and I tried the Crispy Chicken Deluxe Meal, since Brandy thought it was divine. It was good, but the next hour was amazing. My sister-in-law told her life story (basically), and I sat in awe of this mighty woman of God and her determination to be spiritually healthy. I am so grateful for the people God surrounds me with because they are all examples of a persevering heart. They fight on a regular basis to stand strong, knowing their identity in Christ, and constantly remembering His faithfulness and love.
We went to see the Backup Plan (it was all right - definitely have to be in the mood for a chick flick) and talked some more on our way back to the resort. The evening was spent at the waterpark, watching Destiny and her last go around on the bodyboard. She rode on her knees with NO hands! We all were very excited and proud of her.
Here's my journal entry - the last before we left:
I'm really sad - it's time to go home. Am I ready? I know God has something else for me to learn here. I guess I'll be much better when I get home. I'm very grateful for this trip - God has been amazing this week, and I'm learning a lot.
I'm also healing. My heart is more complete than before. Again, God is good.
I'm thinking I can breathe when I get home and be okay for a while.
Thank you, Father, for this week away with you and my family and for being you in my life.
I love you, too, Lord. Thank you.
God is showing me, even now, how many times a day He works and does on our behalf. I keep taking that for granted, and I miss so much of His love throughout the day.
Now, I'm home, been home since Monday, and I'm looking back over my week of vacation. What did I learn? Too much to condense. Am I applying it? One day at a time. Is God totally, fully, and completely sovereign? All day, every day, always, and in every way.
Here's something I got from my dad a couple days ago:
Worry and confidence
If you're able to worry, you're also able to be confident. Because from a functional standpoint, worry and confidence are pretty much the same thing.
Worry is the expectation that something negative will happen. Confidence is the expectation that something positive will happen.
How do you create confidence about something that hasn't happened yet? You use the exact same process you would use to create worry.
The big difference between worry and confidence is the expected outcome. And the powerful fact is, you can expect whatever outcome you choose.
There's another way that worry and confidence are quite similar. They both tend to be self-fulfilling prophesies.
So instead of destroying your effectiveness with worry, you can vastly enhance your effectiveness with confidence. It takes nothing more than a simple yet powerful change in your expectations.
-- Ralph Marston
As soon as I stop worrying,
Worrying how the story ends
I let go and I let God
Let God have His way
That’s when things start happening
When I stopped looking at back then
I let go and I let God
Let God Have his way (DeWayne Woods - Let Go)
Finally, I'm getting it - just hope it's not too late :)
Brandy and I left the others at the resort and went off on a quest to find just the right gift for my mom. I had purchased a cute thermos for her (she's a tea drinker) the day before, and we were in search of something that would make her smile. We got that, and more, at the Bath & Body Works outlet right around the corner. We tried to find her a nice terry robe, but the ones we saw weren't the greatest, and evidently Wal-Mart in TN doesn't carry robes. Oh, well, it is what it is. We decided to go out for lunch before our afternoon trek to the theatre. Wendy's was the choice of the day, and I tried the Crispy Chicken Deluxe Meal, since Brandy thought it was divine. It was good, but the next hour was amazing. My sister-in-law told her life story (basically), and I sat in awe of this mighty woman of God and her determination to be spiritually healthy. I am so grateful for the people God surrounds me with because they are all examples of a persevering heart. They fight on a regular basis to stand strong, knowing their identity in Christ, and constantly remembering His faithfulness and love.
We went to see the Backup Plan (it was all right - definitely have to be in the mood for a chick flick) and talked some more on our way back to the resort. The evening was spent at the waterpark, watching Destiny and her last go around on the bodyboard. She rode on her knees with NO hands! We all were very excited and proud of her.
Here's my journal entry - the last before we left:
I'm really sad - it's time to go home. Am I ready? I know God has something else for me to learn here. I guess I'll be much better when I get home. I'm very grateful for this trip - God has been amazing this week, and I'm learning a lot.
I'm also healing. My heart is more complete than before. Again, God is good.
I'm thinking I can breathe when I get home and be okay for a while.
Thank you, Father, for this week away with you and my family and for being you in my life.
I love you, too, Lord. Thank you.
God is showing me, even now, how many times a day He works and does on our behalf. I keep taking that for granted, and I miss so much of His love throughout the day.
Now, I'm home, been home since Monday, and I'm looking back over my week of vacation. What did I learn? Too much to condense. Am I applying it? One day at a time. Is God totally, fully, and completely sovereign? All day, every day, always, and in every way.
Here's something I got from my dad a couple days ago:
Worry and confidence
If you're able to worry, you're also able to be confident. Because from a functional standpoint, worry and confidence are pretty much the same thing.
Worry is the expectation that something negative will happen. Confidence is the expectation that something positive will happen.
How do you create confidence about something that hasn't happened yet? You use the exact same process you would use to create worry.
The big difference between worry and confidence is the expected outcome. And the powerful fact is, you can expect whatever outcome you choose.
There's another way that worry and confidence are quite similar. They both tend to be self-fulfilling prophesies.
So instead of destroying your effectiveness with worry, you can vastly enhance your effectiveness with confidence. It takes nothing more than a simple yet powerful change in your expectations.
-- Ralph Marston
As soon as I stop worrying,
Worrying how the story ends
I let go and I let God
Let God have His way
That’s when things start happening
When I stopped looking at back then
I let go and I let God
Let God Have his way (DeWayne Woods - Let Go)
Finally, I'm getting it - just hope it's not too late :)
Day 6 - Storms of Life
Saturday - we shopped. Clothes, shoes, food, trinkets.
You name it, we at least looked at it.
Fun times for the ladies while Tommy slept, ate, and hung out for a minute.
Friday AM, I woke up about 5:30 to this crazy loud storm. It was really loud, mostly because we were on the top floor, but it was intense as well. Now, I'm not really a morning person, and I don't get up during storms at home. However, I felt inclined to see what the commotion was, so I got out of bed and looked out the window. Wind blowing leaves off trees and rain pouring down from heaven. Not a lot of thunder and lightening, but there was some noise. I crawled back into bed and curled up, wondering if this storm had a message for me. Its message became evident on Saturday.
Friday & Saturday, the temperature dropped from 90 degrees to right around 60, and it was really messing with my head. I woke up both days with a stuffy nose and burning eyes. I thought it was miserable being sick (but not) on vacation. Then I got a phone call from my sister, telling me to check a message of Facebook. I wasn't able to until we got back to the resort. I went in my room and closed the door, only to read about a dear friend who lost a loved one. I had a suspicion since I'd just discussed this friend the day before with the same sister, but it didn't keep my heart from breaking for and with her.
What can you say or do in the midst of the storm? We're grateful for "being inside", for the protection the Father wraps around us as we wait it out, so to speak. We're thankful for "umbrellas" when we've got to be in the middle of it, but what if our umbrella blows out or can't be found in time? What if it's just us vs. the wind, rain, thunder, lightening, and overwhelming wave that floods our souls?
Today, I read a novel based on the story of Esther. She was an orphan raised by an older male cousin who never married and became queen of a country whose eventual #2 leader wanted to eliminate all traces of the people that shared her blood and God. Talk about a life of storms! How many times do you think she wanted to run away into the safety of the foreign culture? To just be "normal" like everyone else around her? And yet, she chose to stand up, even if it meant her life.
Our storms are not quite like Esther's, but they're just as impacting on our lives. For Esther, it was like she couldn't get a grip on life before being tossed into another storm. For my friend, it may seem like darkness all around, and maybe she's feeling windblown or unfairly treated right now. Well, you may be wondering what I did in this situation. I got her a pair of socks. Why? Because she likes comfy socks. Granted, I bought them before I heard the news, but it wasn't about timing. It was about walking with her, mourning with her, wanting to empathize and be there for her, just like a pair of comfy socks.
2a time to be born, and a time toB)">(B) die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; 3a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 4a time toC)">(C) weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time toD)">(D) dance; 5a time toE)">(E) cast away stones, and a time toF)">(F) gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time toG)">(G) refrain from embracing; 6a time to seek, and a time toH)">(H) lose; a time to keep, and a time toI)">(I) cast away; 7a time toJ)">(J) tear, and a time to sew; a time toK)">(K) keep silence, and a time to speak; 8a time to love, and a time toL)">(L) hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.
Mordecai reminded Esther of these things: 13 Then Mordecai sent back word to Esther: "Just because you live in the king's palace, don't think that out of all the Jewish people you alone will escape.14 If you keep quiet at this time, someone else will help and save the Jewish people, but you and your father's family will all die. And who knows, you may have been chosen queen for just such a time as this." Esther 4 (New Century Version) Solomon also speaks to myself and my friend now. Even though it may seem harsh or sound insensitive, the words of the wise king are still very true.
Storms are necessary for new life, new beginnings, refreshing, renewing, revitalizing, and removing what is unclean and unnecessary from our souls. No one likes it when it rains outside, but they know following the rain is clarity, understanding, and truth - life is more vibrant than before the storm. (Unless you live in the south, where it's a little humid and a little foggy sometimes) God even reminds us in Rev. 21:4, "He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death, sadness, crying, or pain, because all the old ways are gone". One day, we will no longer mourn with those who mourn, but we will rejoice as one body with our Father!
Thank you, Lord, for the storms. May we not be double-minded during them, but persevere through to show ourselves tested and true. May we allow time for mourning, but walk in trust and faith, knowing we will rejoice in and with You for eternity.
You name it, we at least looked at it.
Fun times for the ladies while Tommy slept, ate, and hung out for a minute.
Friday AM, I woke up about 5:30 to this crazy loud storm. It was really loud, mostly because we were on the top floor, but it was intense as well. Now, I'm not really a morning person, and I don't get up during storms at home. However, I felt inclined to see what the commotion was, so I got out of bed and looked out the window. Wind blowing leaves off trees and rain pouring down from heaven. Not a lot of thunder and lightening, but there was some noise. I crawled back into bed and curled up, wondering if this storm had a message for me. Its message became evident on Saturday.
Friday & Saturday, the temperature dropped from 90 degrees to right around 60, and it was really messing with my head. I woke up both days with a stuffy nose and burning eyes. I thought it was miserable being sick (but not) on vacation. Then I got a phone call from my sister, telling me to check a message of Facebook. I wasn't able to until we got back to the resort. I went in my room and closed the door, only to read about a dear friend who lost a loved one. I had a suspicion since I'd just discussed this friend the day before with the same sister, but it didn't keep my heart from breaking for and with her.
What can you say or do in the midst of the storm? We're grateful for "being inside", for the protection the Father wraps around us as we wait it out, so to speak. We're thankful for "umbrellas" when we've got to be in the middle of it, but what if our umbrella blows out or can't be found in time? What if it's just us vs. the wind, rain, thunder, lightening, and overwhelming wave that floods our souls?
Today, I read a novel based on the story of Esther. She was an orphan raised by an older male cousin who never married and became queen of a country whose eventual #2 leader wanted to eliminate all traces of the people that shared her blood and God. Talk about a life of storms! How many times do you think she wanted to run away into the safety of the foreign culture? To just be "normal" like everyone else around her? And yet, she chose to stand up, even if it meant her life.
Our storms are not quite like Esther's, but they're just as impacting on our lives. For Esther, it was like she couldn't get a grip on life before being tossed into another storm. For my friend, it may seem like darkness all around, and maybe she's feeling windblown or unfairly treated right now. Well, you may be wondering what I did in this situation. I got her a pair of socks. Why? Because she likes comfy socks. Granted, I bought them before I heard the news, but it wasn't about timing. It was about walking with her, mourning with her, wanting to empathize and be there for her, just like a pair of comfy socks.
Ecclesiastes 3
A Time for Everything
1For everything there is a season, andA)">(A) a time for every matter under heaven:2a time to be born, and a time toB)">(B) die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; 3a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 4a time toC)">(C) weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time toD)">(D) dance; 5a time toE)">(E) cast away stones, and a time toF)">(F) gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time toG)">(G) refrain from embracing; 6a time to seek, and a time toH)">(H) lose; a time to keep, and a time toI)">(I) cast away; 7a time toJ)">(J) tear, and a time to sew; a time toK)">(K) keep silence, and a time to speak; 8a time to love, and a time toL)">(L) hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.
Mordecai reminded Esther of these things: 13 Then Mordecai sent back word to Esther: "Just because you live in the king's palace, don't think that out of all the Jewish people you alone will escape.14 If you keep quiet at this time, someone else will help and save the Jewish people, but you and your father's family will all die. And who knows, you may have been chosen queen for just such a time as this." Esther 4 (New Century Version) Solomon also speaks to myself and my friend now. Even though it may seem harsh or sound insensitive, the words of the wise king are still very true.
Storms are necessary for new life, new beginnings, refreshing, renewing, revitalizing, and removing what is unclean and unnecessary from our souls. No one likes it when it rains outside, but they know following the rain is clarity, understanding, and truth - life is more vibrant than before the storm. (Unless you live in the south, where it's a little humid and a little foggy sometimes) God even reminds us in Rev. 21:4, "He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death, sadness, crying, or pain, because all the old ways are gone". One day, we will no longer mourn with those who mourn, but we will rejoice as one body with our Father!
Thank you, Lord, for the storms. May we not be double-minded during them, but persevere through to show ourselves tested and true. May we allow time for mourning, but walk in trust and faith, knowing we will rejoice in and with You for eternity.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Day 5 - Take It Slow!
So, today was a good day - simple, relaxed, and easy.
I woke up and spent some time with the Father, and it was so nice and much needed at the time.
Here's the first part of the journal entry for the day:
Isaiah 26:3 - You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in You, all whose thoughts are fixed on you.
2 Cor. 4:18 - So we don't look at the troubles we can see now; rather we fix our gaze on things that can not been seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we can not see will last forever.
Fix our gaze = intensely focus
Fix our thoughts = be consumed by only these thoughts and things
Lord, thank You for the answer in Isaiah - trust and fixing my thoughts.
You desire me to be intensely focused on trusting You for the unseen (who You are, Your character, Your presence in my life, You in others, You around every corner). Father, to be fixed on you, distractions have to be dismissed and removed from view. Lord, I know you've removed me from my normal/regular life because there are distractions. Work, ministry, relationships, even TV, and all those other things are distractions.
Ps. 84:10 - A single day in your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. I would rather be a gatekeeper (door holder!!) in the house of my God than live the good life in the homes of the wicked.
"To dwell in your presence/to be where you are!/ To dwell at your footstool and say that you are/HOLY/MIGHTY/RIGHTEOUS!" - PT & PS
Father, help me to focus/fix my gaze/intensely seek you. When I seek you with all my heart, I will find you. What does it take?
- How can I bless you today?
- Ps. 119:105 - Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path.
- Heed the advice of wisdom.
- No time like the present!
After having a chance to work through a couple things with the Lord, I got up and got ready for the day. That afternoon, we went to see Iron Man 2. Probably would've helped to see all of the first one, but it is what it is. I liked it, especially how Tony lived everyday like he was dying. Also heard Kris Allen's "Live Like We're Dying" in Journeys while browsing shoes after the water park the day before - seemed like a running theme for me. BTW, I found these amazing dual-tone Converses. I like a lot :)
Anyway, here's my question: How do we live everyday like it's our last day? Pray for a heart like Christ's. Speak up, spread the word about His love, be a light IN the world, experience Him and then hold the door open to let the lost in & let those full of His grace out into the world. Let those needing more back in and send them out to make a difference. Long for His return by accelerating the move of the Kingdom. He told us in Matthew 24:14, "And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come." Assist in this move instead of hiding away, huddled and cloistered together, just passing time until Jesus comes to earth. Expect Him around every corner with opportunities for ministry, either for you or from you to another. Receive His blessings AND His correction. Basically, live for the mission, and the end will come.
Yes, Father, I KNOW You're talking to me, too... help my unbelief!
Second part:
Golden Corral, man, with all you can eat baby back ribs and barbecue! Don't you know my brother was HAPPY! It was basically all he could talk about the whole day, and since it's Destiny's favorite place, we heard double the enjoyment. We walk in, pay the fee for the feeding line, and pretty much dig right in. Tommy went after those ribs like there was no tomorrow, and his plate was quite full of swine. Brandy and I balanced out meats and bread with salad, and the girls ate a little of everything. The diversity of food choices and eating habits just among my family is ridiculous, but all God. He created us this way - to be different so no one feels left out or ashamed of themselves. Needless to say, we all ate till we were full and returned to the room feeling good inside. I think we went swimming that night, too, just to work off some of the food. Bless God, Amen!
Just like a buffet, God created so many varieties so everyone could be okay with who they are and what blesses them. In Ps. 139:1-18, the writer declares his awareness of how God created him exactly the way God wanted - v. 13 "you knit me together in my mother's womb" and v.14 "fearfully and wonderfully made". Imagine being knit together! We have a knitting club that meets at our church, and it's amazing to watch these ladies' fingers fly through yarn! It's an intricate, detailed process for the finished piece to be just right, and it takes time. God thought through the process, as detailed and precise as it is, to form us.
Paul talks about who we are as well. In 1 Cor. 9, he talks about being formed to do a work for the kingdom: 20To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. 21To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God's law but am under Christ's law), so as to win those not having the law. 22To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all men so that by all possible means I might save some. 23I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings.
Paul says become all things that you may win some to the kingdom. God's intricate details inside of us create a person that is able to intricately design a plan that will draw others to the Lord. He didn't give us a brain as well as allow us knowledge of right and wrong to just sit on it and think, "Wow, this is nice". He allowed us these tools to fulfill His mission: to make us more like Him and to draw others inside the doors and into the kingdom.
Louie Giglio (a pretty cool guy) spoke a couple weeks ago about being the light of the world. He explained how being the light of the world meant being in the world, and being in the world meant becoming all things to all men that we may win some to the kingdom. Don't take this as a license for sin b/c that's the FURTHEST from the truth. However, don't judge those that aren't holy, sanctified, and praising the name of Jesus every 20 seconds.
God really does love us the way we are, no matter what we _________ (fill in the blank). He love is amazing, steady and unchanging.
I woke up and spent some time with the Father, and it was so nice and much needed at the time.
Here's the first part of the journal entry for the day:
Isaiah 26:3 - You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in You, all whose thoughts are fixed on you.
2 Cor. 4:18 - So we don't look at the troubles we can see now; rather we fix our gaze on things that can not been seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we can not see will last forever.
Fix our gaze = intensely focus
Fix our thoughts = be consumed by only these thoughts and things
Lord, thank You for the answer in Isaiah - trust and fixing my thoughts.
You desire me to be intensely focused on trusting You for the unseen (who You are, Your character, Your presence in my life, You in others, You around every corner). Father, to be fixed on you, distractions have to be dismissed and removed from view. Lord, I know you've removed me from my normal/regular life because there are distractions. Work, ministry, relationships, even TV, and all those other things are distractions.
Ps. 84:10 - A single day in your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. I would rather be a gatekeeper (door holder!!) in the house of my God than live the good life in the homes of the wicked.
"To dwell in your presence/to be where you are!/ To dwell at your footstool and say that you are/HOLY/MIGHTY/RIGHTEOUS!" - PT & PS
Father, help me to focus/fix my gaze/intensely seek you. When I seek you with all my heart, I will find you. What does it take?
- How can I bless you today?
- Ps. 119:105 - Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path.
- Heed the advice of wisdom.
- No time like the present!
After having a chance to work through a couple things with the Lord, I got up and got ready for the day. That afternoon, we went to see Iron Man 2. Probably would've helped to see all of the first one, but it is what it is. I liked it, especially how Tony lived everyday like he was dying. Also heard Kris Allen's "Live Like We're Dying" in Journeys while browsing shoes after the water park the day before - seemed like a running theme for me. BTW, I found these amazing dual-tone Converses. I like a lot :)
Anyway, here's my question: How do we live everyday like it's our last day? Pray for a heart like Christ's. Speak up, spread the word about His love, be a light IN the world, experience Him and then hold the door open to let the lost in & let those full of His grace out into the world. Let those needing more back in and send them out to make a difference. Long for His return by accelerating the move of the Kingdom. He told us in Matthew 24:14, "And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come." Assist in this move instead of hiding away, huddled and cloistered together, just passing time until Jesus comes to earth. Expect Him around every corner with opportunities for ministry, either for you or from you to another. Receive His blessings AND His correction. Basically, live for the mission, and the end will come.
Yes, Father, I KNOW You're talking to me, too... help my unbelief!
Second part:
Golden Corral, man, with all you can eat baby back ribs and barbecue! Don't you know my brother was HAPPY! It was basically all he could talk about the whole day, and since it's Destiny's favorite place, we heard double the enjoyment. We walk in, pay the fee for the feeding line, and pretty much dig right in. Tommy went after those ribs like there was no tomorrow, and his plate was quite full of swine. Brandy and I balanced out meats and bread with salad, and the girls ate a little of everything. The diversity of food choices and eating habits just among my family is ridiculous, but all God. He created us this way - to be different so no one feels left out or ashamed of themselves. Needless to say, we all ate till we were full and returned to the room feeling good inside. I think we went swimming that night, too, just to work off some of the food. Bless God, Amen!
Just like a buffet, God created so many varieties so everyone could be okay with who they are and what blesses them. In Ps. 139:1-18, the writer declares his awareness of how God created him exactly the way God wanted - v. 13 "you knit me together in my mother's womb" and v.14 "fearfully and wonderfully made". Imagine being knit together! We have a knitting club that meets at our church, and it's amazing to watch these ladies' fingers fly through yarn! It's an intricate, detailed process for the finished piece to be just right, and it takes time. God thought through the process, as detailed and precise as it is, to form us.
Paul talks about who we are as well. In 1 Cor. 9, he talks about being formed to do a work for the kingdom: 20To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. 21To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God's law but am under Christ's law), so as to win those not having the law. 22To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all men so that by all possible means I might save some. 23I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings.
Paul says become all things that you may win some to the kingdom. God's intricate details inside of us create a person that is able to intricately design a plan that will draw others to the Lord. He didn't give us a brain as well as allow us knowledge of right and wrong to just sit on it and think, "Wow, this is nice". He allowed us these tools to fulfill His mission: to make us more like Him and to draw others inside the doors and into the kingdom.
Louie Giglio (a pretty cool guy) spoke a couple weeks ago about being the light of the world. He explained how being the light of the world meant being in the world, and being in the world meant becoming all things to all men that we may win some to the kingdom. Don't take this as a license for sin b/c that's the FURTHEST from the truth. However, don't judge those that aren't holy, sanctified, and praising the name of Jesus every 20 seconds.
God really does love us the way we are, no matter what we _________ (fill in the blank). He love is amazing, steady and unchanging.
Romans 8:37-39 (The Message)
31-39So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn't hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn't gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God's chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ's love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture:
They kill us in cold blood because they hate you.
We're sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one.
None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I'm absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God's love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us.
Day 4 - More than Conquerors... we are victorious!
Greetings and salutations!
So, writing a blog is difficult enough without the wifi connection being totally not stable.
Again, another learning experience, so bless God, AMEN!
So, Day 4 - We returned to the water park to enjoy another day in the sun (though indoors). Today De'Leonna and I decided to conquer our fear of drops on water rides. The Storm Chaser intimidated us the previous day, but we decided we wouldn't be the only ones not to experience this ride that took you through a tube, dropped you about 15 feet or so at a 45 degree angle into a huge funnel in which you slid back and forth as you got closer to the bottom which was another tube that accelerated you into a pool at the bottom, culminating a nice splash. (Can you tell I'm reliving those moments again?) Well, ladies and... well, lady (since you're the only one reading, Em), I DID IT!!! TWICE!!! Yes, my limbs were shaking at the end of the first time, especially after going down backwards, but the Lord helped me through another opportunity to keep fear from dictating my life to me. De'Leonna, on the first go around, got to the top of the steps and stopped, pretty close to paralyzed. Between myself and Tommy, we got her on the ride, and it was a little trippy, but guess who went 2 more times? De' De' pushed through her fear and even enjoyed the ride.
After doing this, I let Brandy talk (drag) me into trying bodyboarding on this ride called "Surf Rider". I didn't do as great on this one, but I was proud of myself for the attempt. After I messed up and felt stupid, Tommy and Destiny also went bodyboarding and even got up on their knees! I didn't feel as bad considering they had done it the day before with just as much ability as I had shown - I wonder what I would have accomplished second go round.
After another full, waterlogged day, we had Domino's and salad for dinner, went for a walk (3 of 6), chilled at the pool, and went to bed.
I learned a couple things that day:
1. There are those that hear the call or see the challenge and go full force after it. They heed God's voice immediately and follow in obedience. There are others who hear and see and attempt to follow the call, but give up after trying and messing up, not taking advantage of the opportunity to try again (wonder who that is, bodyboarding misfit!) The book of James talks about those that persevere:
2. This is a lesson gleaned from the wisdom of Brandy as we walked from the resort to Wal-Mart and back - There are burdens God places on our hearts. Are they our burdens to personally carry or are they burdens that He desires us to merely pray over, trusting Him to provide whatever is needed to relieve them? These burdens could be re: family, friends, relationships, work, church, finances, ministry opportunities, or something simple like picking out clothes and accessories :)
Take advantage of those times to hear God's discerning voice. He may show you an elephant, the letter H, and a sharp dagger. Make sure you don't stop asking questions - those three things don't necessarily mean "ride an elephant at the Hartford Zoo, carrying a sharp dagger for protection". Keep asking until He reveals His plan -
So, writing a blog is difficult enough without the wifi connection being totally not stable.
Again, another learning experience, so bless God, AMEN!
So, Day 4 - We returned to the water park to enjoy another day in the sun (though indoors). Today De'Leonna and I decided to conquer our fear of drops on water rides. The Storm Chaser intimidated us the previous day, but we decided we wouldn't be the only ones not to experience this ride that took you through a tube, dropped you about 15 feet or so at a 45 degree angle into a huge funnel in which you slid back and forth as you got closer to the bottom which was another tube that accelerated you into a pool at the bottom, culminating a nice splash. (Can you tell I'm reliving those moments again?) Well, ladies and... well, lady (since you're the only one reading, Em), I DID IT!!! TWICE!!! Yes, my limbs were shaking at the end of the first time, especially after going down backwards, but the Lord helped me through another opportunity to keep fear from dictating my life to me. De'Leonna, on the first go around, got to the top of the steps and stopped, pretty close to paralyzed. Between myself and Tommy, we got her on the ride, and it was a little trippy, but guess who went 2 more times? De' De' pushed through her fear and even enjoyed the ride.
After doing this, I let Brandy talk (drag) me into trying bodyboarding on this ride called "Surf Rider". I didn't do as great on this one, but I was proud of myself for the attempt. After I messed up and felt stupid, Tommy and Destiny also went bodyboarding and even got up on their knees! I didn't feel as bad considering they had done it the day before with just as much ability as I had shown - I wonder what I would have accomplished second go round.
After another full, waterlogged day, we had Domino's and salad for dinner, went for a walk (3 of 6), chilled at the pool, and went to bed.
I learned a couple things that day:
1. There are those that hear the call or see the challenge and go full force after it. They heed God's voice immediately and follow in obedience. There are others who hear and see and attempt to follow the call, but give up after trying and messing up, not taking advantage of the opportunity to try again (wonder who that is, bodyboarding misfit!) The book of James talks about those that persevere:
James 1:12 (New International Version)
12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
James 5:10-11 (New International Version)
10Brothers, as an example of patience in the face of suffering, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. 11As you know, we consider blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.
I read this, and I posed the question to myself... Is this a reflection of where I am in life, attempting but giving up instead of taking advantage of chances given by the Father? More on that later...2. This is a lesson gleaned from the wisdom of Brandy as we walked from the resort to Wal-Mart and back - There are burdens God places on our hearts. Are they our burdens to personally carry or are they burdens that He desires us to merely pray over, trusting Him to provide whatever is needed to relieve them? These burdens could be re: family, friends, relationships, work, church, finances, ministry opportunities, or something simple like picking out clothes and accessories :)
Take advantage of those times to hear God's discerning voice. He may show you an elephant, the letter H, and a sharp dagger. Make sure you don't stop asking questions - those three things don't necessarily mean "ride an elephant at the Hartford Zoo, carrying a sharp dagger for protection". Keep asking until He reveals His plan -
Luke 11:9-10 (Amplified Bible)
9So I say to you, Ask and a]">[a]keep on asking and it shall be given you; seek and b]">[b]keep on seeking and you shall find; knock and c]">[c]keep on knocking and the door shall be opened to you.
10For everyone who asks and d]">[d]keeps on asking receives; and he who seeks and e]">[e]keeps on seeking finds; and to him who knocks and f]">[f]keeps on knocking, the door shall be opened.
How can you expect an answer to a question you never ask? Not only that, but the tense of the verbs in Greek create an active persistence in asking, seeking, and knocking. Don't stop asking questions.
I can see this is going to take more than one post to finish up my vacation, so... on to the next day!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Day 3 - Water, water, water!
Not a long entry tonight - tired doesn't even explain how I feel right now!
We went to a water park, and my body is waterlogged all over. I still feel like I'm in the wave pool, being tossed back and forth. I conquered a fear today - I rode a tube ride all by myself. It's kind of a big deal considering I don't rides basically at all. Well, bless God, Amen!
Today, I sat in this gorgeous indoor/outdoor spa, and my mind drifted away to thoughts I probably didn't need to have and probably could have kept locked away. Then, being in the wave pool, I was reminded of James 1 - "6 But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. 7 Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Their loyalty is divided between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do." My thoughts were so divided between God and what I want; I had to let it go and give it to the Lord, taking them captive to the word. Then, physically, I was TOTALLY being tossed and blown about, but my Father in Heaven knows where my heart is, and it's wanting to follow His and His will "unto death, even death upon a cross". No longer will I live with divided loyalty.
Also, thanks to Emmy for the following: "6If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. 7And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort." (2 Cor 1) Sharing comfort is one thing, but sharing suffering is completely different. In praying for my friend from yesterday, then reading this scripture, now I know why my heart hurts for him. It's my place as his friend and sister in Christ. However, I also know that in sharing his suffering, God will let us share in His comforting love.
Water, water everywhere
In my ears and in my hair.
It's okay cuz God loves me,
And we're as happy as can be!
It's late - that's my excuse.
Love and peace to you. Good night!
We went to a water park, and my body is waterlogged all over. I still feel like I'm in the wave pool, being tossed back and forth. I conquered a fear today - I rode a tube ride all by myself. It's kind of a big deal considering I don't rides basically at all. Well, bless God, Amen!
Today, I sat in this gorgeous indoor/outdoor spa, and my mind drifted away to thoughts I probably didn't need to have and probably could have kept locked away. Then, being in the wave pool, I was reminded of James 1 - "6 But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. 7 Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Their loyalty is divided between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do." My thoughts were so divided between God and what I want; I had to let it go and give it to the Lord, taking them captive to the word. Then, physically, I was TOTALLY being tossed and blown about, but my Father in Heaven knows where my heart is, and it's wanting to follow His and His will "unto death, even death upon a cross". No longer will I live with divided loyalty.
Also, thanks to Emmy for the following: "6If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. 7And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort." (2 Cor 1) Sharing comfort is one thing, but sharing suffering is completely different. In praying for my friend from yesterday, then reading this scripture, now I know why my heart hurts for him. It's my place as his friend and sister in Christ. However, I also know that in sharing his suffering, God will let us share in His comforting love.
Water, water everywhere
In my ears and in my hair.
It's okay cuz God loves me,
And we're as happy as can be!
It's late - that's my excuse.
Love and peace to you. Good night!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Day 2 - What a day, what a day!
How much can you learn about yourself in one day? Well, let's see...
1. I am not okay with a lot of walking on only 4 hours of sleep.
2. I need to turn my alarm off when I'm on vacation: who wants to get up at 7 AM on vacay?
3. Shell-toe Adidas tennis shoes are not hot when you're hiking in mountains - can't mess up the pretty shoes.
4. My family and the Stevenson family - WAAAYYYY too similar, but I love it, just like I love both families.
5. My experiences in life have only served to soften my heart to those around me, and I'm very grateful for God letting me live so others can learn from my mistakes.
That's not all, but it's definitely enough :)
So, day 2 - I talked with my friend Natalie til early AM, wrote in my journal, prayed, and got to sleep around 3-ish. Woke up at sunrise (7 AM) and looked out the window to see the amazingly breathtaking scene freshly lit with early morning sunlight. I totally pulled out the camera and praised God for another day. I went back to bed, but sleep was elusive as I continued to think through the plan for the day and topics from the night before. I got a call from a friend that hurt my heart, but God is WAY faithful and SO good to us. I loved speaking support and encouragement into him, and I love opportunities to love others. I just pray it was helpful... I'm totally thinking, "Jayme, you talk way too much", but I hope God works through that :)
After the conversation and a shower, the family and I headed out to Sugarlands Visitor Center for our trek to the waterfalls. We made it to one, nixed the second, and drove out to see the final two. The third has a closed parking lot, and the fourth was almost missed! It's crazy - what did God show me on the second day of my Tennessee adventure? That today is a good day. I saw beauty at its east coast finery. I experienced an exciting time learning about birds, trees, animals, and mountain life. Even more, though, today is a day the Lord made, and we can choose to rejoice and be glad in it. I mean, seriously, isn't that what brings Him joy? Knowing we go through the day loving it because He made it? The only thing that could make it all better is shouting the gospel to every corner of the world!
Our great commission in life is make disciples wherever we go, right? So, what makes us effective in this venture? Rejoicing in each day He's made for us! Joy is a by-product of love, and His love is life changing! His love is gratifying, electrifying, fulfilling, exciting, and completely joyful!
Take Him at His word: seek His kingdom, a joyful and wonderful experience, and everything will come to you - His grace, affection, mercy, compassion, blessings, favor, and opportunities to share it all with the world.
I know this may seem scattered - that could be due to watching Cartoon Network at the same time I'm trying to be spiritual - but God is desiring us to take the day and see the many occasions throughout the day to see how awesomely He works in our lives.
Rest of the afternoon spent at "The Funnel Cake", where they dip candy bars and fry them in addition to selling funnel cakes with tasty toppings, ice cream, and drinks. So good, but needed a salad after that one! Then, we headed back to the resort via Wal-Mart (God's gift to the middle class), and now everyone's resting before an evening full of twilight swimming.
So, here's my wrap-up: Today really is a good day - here's to walking trails, Wal-Mart, wonderfully tasty funnel cakes, a wicked Taco Tuesday, and a weeknight of water fun! Rejoice and be glad in your beautiful day, my friends!
1. I am not okay with a lot of walking on only 4 hours of sleep.
2. I need to turn my alarm off when I'm on vacation: who wants to get up at 7 AM on vacay?
3. Shell-toe Adidas tennis shoes are not hot when you're hiking in mountains - can't mess up the pretty shoes.
4. My family and the Stevenson family - WAAAYYYY too similar, but I love it, just like I love both families.
5. My experiences in life have only served to soften my heart to those around me, and I'm very grateful for God letting me live so others can learn from my mistakes.
That's not all, but it's definitely enough :)
So, day 2 - I talked with my friend Natalie til early AM, wrote in my journal, prayed, and got to sleep around 3-ish. Woke up at sunrise (7 AM) and looked out the window to see the amazingly breathtaking scene freshly lit with early morning sunlight. I totally pulled out the camera and praised God for another day. I went back to bed, but sleep was elusive as I continued to think through the plan for the day and topics from the night before. I got a call from a friend that hurt my heart, but God is WAY faithful and SO good to us. I loved speaking support and encouragement into him, and I love opportunities to love others. I just pray it was helpful... I'm totally thinking, "Jayme, you talk way too much", but I hope God works through that :)
After the conversation and a shower, the family and I headed out to Sugarlands Visitor Center for our trek to the waterfalls. We made it to one, nixed the second, and drove out to see the final two. The third has a closed parking lot, and the fourth was almost missed! It's crazy - what did God show me on the second day of my Tennessee adventure? That today is a good day. I saw beauty at its east coast finery. I experienced an exciting time learning about birds, trees, animals, and mountain life. Even more, though, today is a day the Lord made, and we can choose to rejoice and be glad in it. I mean, seriously, isn't that what brings Him joy? Knowing we go through the day loving it because He made it? The only thing that could make it all better is shouting the gospel to every corner of the world!
Our great commission in life is make disciples wherever we go, right? So, what makes us effective in this venture? Rejoicing in each day He's made for us! Joy is a by-product of love, and His love is life changing! His love is gratifying, electrifying, fulfilling, exciting, and completely joyful!
Take Him at His word: seek His kingdom, a joyful and wonderful experience, and everything will come to you - His grace, affection, mercy, compassion, blessings, favor, and opportunities to share it all with the world.
I know this may seem scattered - that could be due to watching Cartoon Network at the same time I'm trying to be spiritual - but God is desiring us to take the day and see the many occasions throughout the day to see how awesomely He works in our lives.
Rest of the afternoon spent at "The Funnel Cake", where they dip candy bars and fry them in addition to selling funnel cakes with tasty toppings, ice cream, and drinks. So good, but needed a salad after that one! Then, we headed back to the resort via Wal-Mart (God's gift to the middle class), and now everyone's resting before an evening full of twilight swimming.
So, here's my wrap-up: Today really is a good day - here's to walking trails, Wal-Mart, wonderfully tasty funnel cakes, a wicked Taco Tuesday, and a weeknight of water fun! Rejoice and be glad in your beautiful day, my friends!
Monday, May 3, 2010
Day 1 in the Great Smoky Mountains
From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming
Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God
Last night, the Stevenson family and myself ventured into the Great Smoky Mountains for a week of vacationing. From Marietta to the GA border, it was beautiful, partly cloudy, and divinely quiet. From the Tennessee border to the entrance of the resort, it was torrential rainstorm and hurricane-like winds. I realized as we continued to push through and make our way toward Sevierville/Pigeon Forge that our trip, from the beginning, would be an adventure. So far (near the end of day one), it has not disappointed.
I woke up this morning and pulled back the curtains in my room at this wonderful mountain resort. The view from my window made me immediately think of the song above. I couldn't believe how majestic and amazing the world was right before my eyes. I watched the clouds roll back as time passed and reveal even more mountaintops. It took everything in me not to cry at the awe-inspiring scene before me. I shared my view with my brother and sister-in-law, and each of us thanked the Lord for His blessings.
Later in the AM, I went with Tommy and Brandy to scout out the area, and that was an amazing adventure. The things we found may not qualify to others as adventurous or amazing, but it was to me. We drove through the mountains and pulled off to the side to take pictures of these amazing scenes created by the hand of God. Our adventure: trying to fathom the awesomeness of God's desire for beauty in nature. I wish I could post pictures, but I forgot the USB cable for my camera. If you ever get to travel through this part of Tennessee, take advantage of the opportunity.
Tomorrow, we're headed off on a couple hikes to see waterfalls, mountain peaks, and even walking through the valleys.
Tonight, it's "As Seen on TV" and the Tanger Outlet mall. The diversity of my family... I love it!
So, today's amazingly, full of God thought... Today, we could have driven right through the mountains looking and saying, "Oh, that's nice". I could've left the curtains closed and complained about the 3 phone calls and banging on the door that woke us up over the course of the morning. I could've gotten upset when the plans were up in limbo, and we possibly were headed to Florida instead!
God has such amazing plans for us, all throughout the day, and it only takes ONE decision to alter it all. He wanted us in Tennessee this week, and He knew rain couldn't deter us. He wanted us to see the mountains and valleys and trees and streams and waterfalls. He wanted us to encounter the nice, kind people along the way here and even here now.
Remember, God wants awe-inspiring, mind-blowing, transforming events in our lives all the time everyday. When Jesus said he came to bring life and that it would be abundant, he wasn't just talking about "I have joy today". He brought exciting excursions through his creation and wonderful conversations with friends. He brought life-changing volunteer opportunities that result in extreme gratitude, graciousness, and thankfulness. He brought family and love and support and encouragement. He brought the Holy Spirit, who speaks life and truth to us all the time.
I can't imagine life without my Heavenly Father, His Son, His Spirit, and His heart for me.
Tommy walked out of my room after seeing the view, and he said, "God loves you!"
All I can say after today is "Yes, He does!"
Oh, how He loves us so!
How I love Him in return!
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming
Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God
Last night, the Stevenson family and myself ventured into the Great Smoky Mountains for a week of vacationing. From Marietta to the GA border, it was beautiful, partly cloudy, and divinely quiet. From the Tennessee border to the entrance of the resort, it was torrential rainstorm and hurricane-like winds. I realized as we continued to push through and make our way toward Sevierville/Pigeon Forge that our trip, from the beginning, would be an adventure. So far (near the end of day one), it has not disappointed.
I woke up this morning and pulled back the curtains in my room at this wonderful mountain resort. The view from my window made me immediately think of the song above. I couldn't believe how majestic and amazing the world was right before my eyes. I watched the clouds roll back as time passed and reveal even more mountaintops. It took everything in me not to cry at the awe-inspiring scene before me. I shared my view with my brother and sister-in-law, and each of us thanked the Lord for His blessings.
Later in the AM, I went with Tommy and Brandy to scout out the area, and that was an amazing adventure. The things we found may not qualify to others as adventurous or amazing, but it was to me. We drove through the mountains and pulled off to the side to take pictures of these amazing scenes created by the hand of God. Our adventure: trying to fathom the awesomeness of God's desire for beauty in nature. I wish I could post pictures, but I forgot the USB cable for my camera. If you ever get to travel through this part of Tennessee, take advantage of the opportunity.
Tomorrow, we're headed off on a couple hikes to see waterfalls, mountain peaks, and even walking through the valleys.
Tonight, it's "As Seen on TV" and the Tanger Outlet mall. The diversity of my family... I love it!
So, today's amazingly, full of God thought... Today, we could have driven right through the mountains looking and saying, "Oh, that's nice". I could've left the curtains closed and complained about the 3 phone calls and banging on the door that woke us up over the course of the morning. I could've gotten upset when the plans were up in limbo, and we possibly were headed to Florida instead!
God has such amazing plans for us, all throughout the day, and it only takes ONE decision to alter it all. He wanted us in Tennessee this week, and He knew rain couldn't deter us. He wanted us to see the mountains and valleys and trees and streams and waterfalls. He wanted us to encounter the nice, kind people along the way here and even here now.
Remember, God wants awe-inspiring, mind-blowing, transforming events in our lives all the time everyday. When Jesus said he came to bring life and that it would be abundant, he wasn't just talking about "I have joy today". He brought exciting excursions through his creation and wonderful conversations with friends. He brought life-changing volunteer opportunities that result in extreme gratitude, graciousness, and thankfulness. He brought family and love and support and encouragement. He brought the Holy Spirit, who speaks life and truth to us all the time.
I can't imagine life without my Heavenly Father, His Son, His Spirit, and His heart for me.
Tommy walked out of my room after seeing the view, and he said, "God loves you!"
All I can say after today is "Yes, He does!"
Oh, how He loves us so!
How I love Him in return!
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